Calvary Love

• If I belittle those whom I am called to serve, talk of their weak points in contrast perhaps with what I think of as my strong points; if I adopt a superior attitude, forgetting "Who made thee to differ?And what hast thou that thou has not recieved?" then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I find myself taking lapses for granted, "Oh, that's what they always do," "Oh, of course she talks like that, he acts like that," then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I can enjoy a joke at the expense of another; if I can in any way slight another in conversation, or even in thought, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I can write an unkind letter, speak an unkind word, think an unkind thought without grief and shame, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I do not feel far more for the grieved Savior than for my worried self when troublesome things occur, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I can rebuke without a pang, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If my attitude is one of fear, not faith, about one who has disappointed me; if I say, "Just what I expected" if a fall occurs, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I am afraid to speak the truth, lest I lose affection, or least the one concerned should say, "you do not understand," or because I fear to lose my reputation for kindness; if I put my own good name before the other's highest good, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I am content to heal a hurt slightly, saying "Peace, peace," where there is no peace; if I forget the poignant word "Let love be without dissimulation" and blunt the edge of truth, speaking not right things but smooth thing, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I hold on to choices of any kind, just because they are my choices, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I am soft to myself and slide comfortably into self-pity and self-sympathy; if I do not by the grace of God practice fortitude, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I myself dominate myself, if my thoughts revolve around myself, if I am so occupied with myself I rarely have "a heart at leisure from itself," then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If, the moment I am conscious of the shadow of self crossing my threshold, I do not shut the door, and keep that door shut, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I cannot in honest happiness take the second place (or the twentieth); if I cannot take the first without making a fuss about my unworthiness, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I take offense easily, if I am content to continue in a cool unfriendliness, though friendship be possible, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I feel injured when another lays to my charge things that I know not, forgetting that my sinless Savior trod this path to the end, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I bitter toward those who condemn me, as it seems to me, unjustly, forgetting that if they knew me as I know myself they would condemn me much more, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If souls can suffer alongside and I hardly know it because the spirit of discernment is not in me, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If the praise of others elates me and their blame depresses me; if I cannot rest under misunderstanding without defending myself; if I love to be loved more than to love, to be served more than to serve, than I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I crave hungrily to be used to show the way of liberty to a soul in bondage, instead of caring only that it be delivered; if I nurse my disappointment when I fail, instead of asking that to another the word of release may be given, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I do not forget about such a trifle as personal success, so that it never crosses my mind, or if it does, is never given room there;
• If the cup of flattery tastes sweet to me, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If in the fellowship of servie I seek to attach a friend to myself, so that others are cause to feel unwanted; if my friendships do not draw others deeper in, but are ungenerous (to myself, for myself), then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I refuse to allow one who is dear to me to suffer for the sake of Christ,
• If I do not see such suffering as the greatest honr that can be offered to any follower of the Crucified, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I slip into the place that can be filled by Christ alone, making myself the first necessity to a soul instead of leading it to fasten upon Him, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If my interest in the work of others is cool; if I think of my own special work; if the burdens of others are not my burdens too, and their joys mine, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I wonder why something trying is allowed, and press for prayer that it may be removed, if I cannot be trust with any disappointment, and cannot go on in peace under any mystery, then I now nothing of Calvary Love.
• If the ultimate, the hardest, cannot be asked of me; if my fellows hestitate to ask it and turn to someone else, then I know nothing of Calvary Love.
• If I covet any place on earth but the dust at the foot of the Cross, then I know nothing of Calvary Love. "That which I know not, teach Thou me, O Lord, my God." -Amy Carmichael